A LOVE LETTER TO A MOUNTAINEER

Dear You,

I’d like to believe that this is a spur of the moment reaction, but the emotions inside me are bursting the way the sun tries to illuminate the cloudy skies on a stormy days. I couldn’t help it. It’s suffocating. You have been constantly appearing on my dreams and occupying my mind every time I space out. God knows how I tried to shoo you away; but no matter what I do, I just can’t shut you up. And so here I am, on one corner of my workplace, attacking the keyboard of this laptop, trying to figure out what to do with what I feel; because as far as I’m concerned, writing has been my sole comfort place – my antidote, my personal brand of ecstasy.

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Just as how poor I am with directions, I just can’t trace back how I fell for you. Was it your contagious smile? Your mean jokes? Crazy interruptions? Random outbursts? Or simply the way you talk about your love for nature and your passion to take good care of it? I don’t know. Simply put, I just found myself waking up one day feeling something weird towards you. I began to look forward to seeing your face on screen, making random chats, and posting side comments on my posts. Just the mere thought of you creates a tingling sensation on my chest down to my stomach. Butterflies, they call it. I began to imagine climbing more mountains, discovering the depths of the ocean, and cliffjumping unto the unknown while holding hands with you. I started feeling like every other girl. I fell in love.

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The romantic side of me took over. I started to see the wonders of nature in a different perspective. Though you were not with me on some of my journeys, I secretly hoped you were there as I witness the marvelous love scene of sun going back to the arms of the seas, wish for “Forever” on a falling star, and exchange plans of tomorrows on every summit reached. I created dauntless dreams of both of us.

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I was too hopeful that you’d feel the same way. Too hopeful, that is. I assumed even if there was actually nothing between us. Then it hit me straight to the face – it was an isolated case of unrequited love. A one-sided love affair. The greatest of all tragedies.

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I’m writing this to you not to send off my outbursts. Writing is my way of letting go of my feelings for you. I don’t like to hold it anymore. Two years is enough. More than enough of hoping for something that won’t happen. I need to get back on my feet, conquer more mountains, chase sunsets, feel the rush of adrenaline, and live life as it should be. Because that is how it should be. And should it happen that we are for each other, what a relief it would be. But if not, still a relief it would be.

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I hope you’ll soon find the love of your life. It may not be me, but I know she’ll be the right one for you. You’re a good person and I know God has prepared somebody of your worth. I pray that you can help more individuals with your kindness and aid in the preservation of our mountains and bodies of water.

You will always have a space in my heart.

Love,

Somebody that you used to know

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PPS. Cover photo via Google. 🙂 🙂 🙂

 

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61 thoughts on “A LOVE LETTER TO A MOUNTAINEER

    1. If you have time, why not? 😀 😀 😀 The mountains would always love to see people who enjoys tranquility and simple appreciation of beauty. If by chance, you are free to join us in our next climb.

      P.S. Thanks for dropping by! 😀

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  1. You’re such a poetic in a way you convey the right words and hit the very deep of human existence. You always leave me speechless every time I read your blog post. I am attempting to elucidate how the clueless reaction can form and hit the square on my face saying you’re indeed a pointless angles that rolls on the same direction and made your way out to the very end. I am passing off and said, someone will hear the soundless call of this woman and deserves everything. I loved how it was written. Idol najud teka.

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    1. Nagdugo akong ilong sa imong “I am attempting to elucidate how the clueless reaction can form and hit the square on my face saying you’re indeed a pointless angles that rolls on the same direction and made your way out to the very end” uyyy. HAHAHA. Kung poetic ko, unsa nalang ka? WAHAHAHA.

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          1. Ai sus ipasa man sa ako ah oi. Ikaw baya ako idol anang maayo mudalag suwat, kay maka excite kaayo. Mag cgeg form ang questions sa atong hunahuna while ga basa, unsa kaha sunod anih? Hehehehe. Idollllll

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    1. Why? You don’t necessarily need to go for the tall ones. I have lots of friends and acquaintances who join us in our hikes. Not necessarily the tough ones. There are those that we call as “Pabebe Climb”. 😀 😀 😀

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      1. Hmm, some says its just a “pabebe climb” but when arrived its not :/ although i can do it i know i can i just restrict myself from climbing due to health issues. 🙈 but perhaps in time i will.

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        1. HAHAHA. It actually depends on how you condition your mind and self. There were some friends who once feared to join me in my activities but after they have tried, they became unstoppable. The one that I knew that fainted during our first climb has conquered more mountains than I did. HAHAHA. You can do it girl. Aja!

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  2. You’re the only mountaineer I know who writes with passion and so much love! Can’t wait to meditate with you on top of the mountains! HAHA pabebe climb, I’m almost near you!

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    1. Thanks! 😀 😀 😀 We will learn sometime in our lives that no matter how hard we fight for it, strive for it, some things are really not meant for us. We just have to learn to accept it and see it in a different perspective. 🙂

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  3. I want to ask what happened and if you two actually talked about your feelings but I guess this isn’t really the place for that discussion. Well, the good thing about mountaintop views is that they’re beautiful regardless of whether you’re holding someone else’s hands or not.

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    1. I don’t have a group. What I usually do is to hitch climbing activities when some groups here in Cebu have their preclimbs, most specially when they’re planning for a major climb. But should you want to join us, feel free to contact me 🙂

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  4. What an adventure you must be having there! What I admire about you is how you are so positive and motivating to other people! You could be a motivational speaker if you wanted to! Keep going and keep achieving your dreams!

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    1. Wow. That’d be amazing. But I really can’t picture myself sharing “words of wisdom” to others. I can’t even convince myself to change. WAHAHAHA. Moreover, I am more at home with writing compared to sharing in front of many many people – stage fright they call it. HAHA 😀 😀 😀

      Thanks for dropping by! 🙂 🙂 🙂 Your words are truly encouraging.

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  5. This is too heartfelt and also, sad. But I’m glad that you decided to move on. Letting go is one of the hardest things you will ever do in this life but when you realize that we need to let go of some things that are not meant for us, the things that are meant for us would suddenly come.

    I hope that you too would find the one who would love you the way you deserve to be loved.

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  6. Reading this gave me such a poignant feeling. I have experienced a climb with someone I love who is so impossible to be mine. It is not because she is with someone else but because we are just not meant to be. It’s complicated so let us just keep it that way. That was a good article! Well-written!

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      1. Hindi ka nag-iisa Dakila! Marami tayong sawi! That is why we climb mountains to find refuge and solace because we badly need it. 🙂 See you along the trail! 🙂

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  7. Ayee.. 😀 Gilok kaayo ug words. Should I have written a letter to my crush as wonderfully as this, kami siguro ang nagminyo. Hahah. 😀

    Here’s to hoping you’ll find your “forever” soon.

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